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But Did You Die?

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I'm sure that at least one time in your life, you have experienced being wronged. I mean REALLY being wronged. You feel that the person somehow should pay for what they’ve done or AT THE VERY LEAST apologize for it. Right? Well if you haven't, I have!  I was recently asked how did I get past the feeling of "YOU MUST PAY"!  Now let me be transparent.  I definitely went through moments of thinking of ways they should pay and the satisfaction I would get out of it. I questioned God. "Why do they get to go on with their lives? Why do they get to prosper after doing this to me? Why do they get to...blah blah blah?" I expressed that I didn't think it was fair.  After all, I was hurt, talked about, embarrassed, felt like a failure, etc. Eventually, God said, " I know how this made you feel but you survived".  At first, I felt "Really God? But I survive? Yeah, Barely sir" After some prayer, ok a great deal of prayer, I realize that I was lo

This Is My Confession

So here is my confession. A few years ago, I did not consider myself to have many friends. None really. However,  I  established several "brother/sister" relationships throughout my life. I now know why some were established(some for reason, some for a season, and some for a lifetime). To call someone brother or sister vs friend gave me...license not to expect much. Let me explain. Brothers and sisters aren't necessarily friends they're siblings because thy "have to be". There's no commitment/ requirements it "just IS". I  have always done my best to live by the rule/ scripture "do unto others...". I have found, more often than I care to admit, that that isn't a rule everyone follows. This has caused me much hurt, embarrassment and has caused me to build up a defense wall. I have since learned, through my growth and a little therapy, that I do that to protect myself from being hurt.  What I was doing was hurting myself because I w