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Knock Knock! Who is it? Suicide!

Have you ever been going about your everyday life and out of the blue all hell seems to break loose? It may be one thing or it can be a combination of events that just come and bombard your emotions or your life. The kids are screaming, the baby is crying, the boss is yelling, the cat wont' come in.  Sometimes it can be something as simple as all fo the milk being gone RIGHT when you want a bowl of cereal. There is a link between depression and suicide.  If you are someone that is fighting depression, it is very easy to want to mask it from your friends and family, but don't.  It's important that you let them know the struggle that you you are fighting so they can help you fight.  They can be our eyes and ears.  We all know our friends and family and we may notice certain mood changes or triggers.  Not that you have to "police" or "babysit", but be mindful of their behavior.  We should be mindful of how our friends and loved ones are behaving especially

Working past the FRUSTRATION

Have you ever been frustrated? I mean just frustrated with being frustrated? Bills are more the income, one step forward 3 steps back, can't win for losing? I looked up the word frustrated and one of the definitions was:  the act of preventing the success of something : the act of frustrating something. Pretty much how I feel at this moment. Frustrated, with life, my situation, myself. I am learning some of the hints that triggers my depression. At least by identifying those things I can work offensively so I can work ahead so it doesn't consume me. One of my biggest triggers I have found is my finances(or lack thereof). I've always considered myself a good hard worker, team player, creative mind, etc. It seems that no matter how hard I work, how much time I put in, how dedicated I am, I just can't get ahead. I have worked hard in every area in my life, completed my MA.Ed, yet still only working making pennies.  WHAT IS THE PROBLEM??? Well, I am still a believer that Go

No Fear Just Faith

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Throughout your life, have you ever wanted to do something, or gotten the unction or directive from God to do something but didn't/couldn't do it because of fear? Well I have. There are some things that God has called me to do that I haven't done. Not for lack of obedience or faith but because of fear. Yesterday I was reminded that FEAR and FAITH CANNOT coexist. It's like having two trains on the same track traveling on opposite directions. Eventually the two will collide. No matter how I/we wrap it up in a nice package and say "oh I have faith in God but idk about this", if we fear we don't faith.  At the end of the day, without faith it's impossible to please God. If we fear, we aren't having faith. TRUST me, I get it. Stepping out on something new, unknown can be frightening. We don't know the outcome. But if we trust God and have FAITH in HIS guidance how can we fail? If we allow fear to stagnate us or prevent us from reaching out dreams, w

Hell...NO I'm Ford Tough

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Through my journey in this thing called life, various situations and circumstances have caused those that have watched my walk and my faith tell me, "you were born for this! You're Ford Tough". Well being "Ford though was a common slogan for the Ford F series trucks back in the day and even still today. Recently some events have occurred that may knock the "ordinary" person to their breaking point, especially if they have had issues with depression in the past like I have.  Well, today I was reminded again that I was "built for this". Idk about you but I have asked God before "WHY sir do I have to be THIS strong? Why do I have to endure and endure and ENDURE some more"?  So I decided to look at how they came up with the slogan "Ford tough". (Hey, since folks are using it to reference me, I should know what they're talking about right?) Well, this is what I found Ford Truck. A Ford marketing manager Stated that  "Toughn

Soar Like An Eagle

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So I was driving home from work today and noticed some birds flying.  I saw some birds that were in a group and then I saw a different type of bird  but there were only 2.  I watched these 2 sets of birds for a while.  I noticed that the smaller bird(there were about 6-8 of them) they would fly and flap their wings, lose altitude and flap their wings and fly more.  This was an ongoing process. All this time the other birds were just soaring, allowing the wind to do the work for them, never flapping or losing altitude.  I began to look at these 2 birds without a care in the world. Not worrying about where they would live, what they would eat, what they're going to wear to work tomorrow.  They were soaring high, chillin, relaxed.  At that moment I said "Maaaan the life of the bird.  It should be that easy. No stressing no worrying, just going where the wind takes you".  At that moment God told me " It can be that simple if you give it all to me and trust my process&q

Together Forever

This post I'm just sharing my feelings. I have a cousin, well technically we aren't blood related but blood could not make us closer. Our parents grew up, met their spouses, married, lived in the same neighborhood and raised families together. Most of my good memories involved her. We went to church, played, sleep overs, vacations, got in trouble, etc together. Well my cousin has been battling cancer for a bit. Nonetheless she has a positive attitude. Sure she has her days, who wouldn't, but overall she would bring encouragement to us in her faith of healing. This past week the dr gas her news that the cancer has entered her blood. This news has shaken her a bit. She has a husband and children that she is literally fighting to live for.  I believe that even though the dr says one thing about her diagnosis that God can turn it around. This is what I need from you. I need you to pray for my cousin Angie. Pray not only that God completely heals her, but that she is encouraged

Weather Report

As I looked at my "Timehop" I saw a post I  wrote a year ago. The post was written as I watched the news, specifically the weather. It made me think, how many of us plan our day, waredrobe, etc around what the weatherman "predicts"? He says "a chance of rain" we take our umbrella. He says, "1-3 inches of snow" we wear boots. Even if when we look outside and there is NO sign of what the weatherman has predicted, we believe and carry out our day accordingly. What if we had the same faith in God, his promises and his word as we do the weatherman. Would we believe that "by his stripes we are healed" even when the dr report says differently? Will we believe that when we're in trouble "God will part the heavens and come down and grab hold of us" when we are in trouble regardless if there APPEARS to be no way out? Will we believe? When we look at our situations, bills, finances, life, and what we see doesn't match what God ha